worried :|

I was out for almost a week? hhm. anyway, i miss blogging so much.

Hhmm. How will I start this? of course, I should start from the beginning. Well, im on a worriyng stage on what will I supposed to act just to proved him what I truly feel inside unless he gives deep meaning about the musics, comments, MESSAGES and everything that i was giving and doing to him!

Oh come on, I hoped you’ve seen those efforts!

Honestly, I’ve fallen for that guy and I thought he have known that special feeling.  But, yesterday. Big messed comed, yeahh. I thought,  he doesn’t even know that i have that feeling too. Fatcccccch! Hate it. How could I prove him if im not yet ready to take the risk.

Not the risk to love him more than what I expected I could give, But the risk to lose one friend, Actually, that girl was i think not obsessed. But he likes the guy. arh. pathetic!  wahhh! I have never been encountered a situation as hard like this!

Haha! But then I will not let that guy go. Now, tell me. is it wrong to be selfish just to be happy rather than continue being selfish to my own self?